PRETTY BALANCED BY: Ivy Carnegie: November 2011

Just a little update..

Here's an article that was published in NiteGuide Magazinehttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif . Click for website.. It was so much fun, I will say. It was super exciting. Mostly because I had been wanting to be in that magazine for quite some time. It was not a paid job, nor even a " Modeling" job, but just a feature. Everything adds up, and I was persistent in pursuing them. :) It paid off. I love the article, and the opportunity.

Acting Update..
So in Early October I had an audition for Cougar Town. The ABC hit show staring Courtney Cox.

and a few others...
the audition was during such a busy week ( as important ones always are). The thought of skipping it just to avoid the stress of traffic definitely crossed my mind. But I went, I made the commitment,I wanted to keep it. I went to an audition that I sat in traffic for 5 hours for, stood in my bikini ( when I didn't feel I was "bikini ready" in front of the casting directors, said my three lines, for a job I thought was way out of the possibility of getting...( one that most likely conflicted with my trip back to Illinois Anyhow..) But I wasn't going to get it anyhow. I was really going to appease my agent, stick to my commitments, and just GO.

TRUTH- you can't get ANY jobs, if you don't go to auditions....

I of course, received a call, two days before I was due to fly out, to be a part of my childhood best friends wonderful week of wedding festivities. My agent wanted me to stay in CA to potentially shoot for the show the 10th, and 11th of October. Smack dab in the middle of when I was suppose to be home making sure the beautiful bride was happy, and her day went as planned. The thought of changing my flight and not flying to IL crossed my mind, but they couldn't guarantee me that it shot those days, or that I even had the job!!! I sobbed, alot. My husband listened to me sob, alot. I was already stressed with working up until the point of flying out, literally, and my husband missing school and work, and my poor friend, whoms week it was all about, not me, and my potential job adventures.

What to do? I prayed. alot. and I prayed more. I called my mom and dad and had them pray. I text my aunts to pray. I prayed some more.

My agent still hadn't got back to me literally up until I was packing my bags. They were waiting on production.

But during my run, ( I usually run when Im stressed out, upset, whatever)...
I was anxiously waiting for the call from my agent. Was I changing my flight or not? Was my husband missing lots of work and school or not? Was I going to crush my girlfriend who was relying on me or not? Was I about to pay nearly $3,000 to change my flight or not? Was I to register for a car to pick us up and take us to the airport, or not? I was all over the place...

However, this song for whatever reason, on my little MP3 player, ( I assure you its a little old fashioned thing) kept playing a song over and over again.

I swear, over and over again. It was so weird. But cliche.. " it spoke to me".. I left the gym ( this hadn't heard from my agent.) Called the bride to be, and my husband and told them both I was going to Illinois, I was going to be there for my friend, and if I miss it. I miss it... There is more jobs, more opportunities, and I know God will take care of me.

As I called the Bride to be, sweaty, driving away from the Gym, with the Lyrics of that song in my head, she answered, just as my agent called in. I hung up with her, and listened to the voice of my agent tell me that production on " Cougar Town" was behind and they would not be shooting that scene until later. I still was unsure if I even had the job.

I was so relieved, not because of that call alone, but because I had reached a place of peace in my decision and everything fell into place. ( AND I STILL DON'T KNOW IF I EVEN HAVE THE JOB) All this stress for a MAYBE? Or a MAYBE NOT?